No. 1

one day,my fren ask"eh,when is your bday??"

i feel excited pulak dat time,haha,tot she wanna give me stgelse on my bday

"erm 11feb lo"

"you maybe the type of person got leadership wan..."

i was like "............"

erm.....she say, according to visiber punya calculation hor, ppl like me can be leader...

ok.my post wasnt to show off myself,i jz wanna say that, sumtimes, ppl tend to be supertitious,

afterall, because this type of ppl keep in faith,believe in everythg they do,finally,they success,

so i understand that, always have faith in what you do my friend, and take care =)

sign off,

steven

tiger beer

had been long long time we never drink together,is damn crazy for tonight, we are never try drink so much after our club after yr1, tonight i am really enjoy it.

too bad, now alergy starts attack my palm, both also felt damn numb right now, dont know what will happen after i wake up.haha,watever, like what people always says:what comes around,goes around =)

i am happy cz finally today i can see you again, i am not hoping anything,anymore,when you are smile, my heart are smilling too. no matter what happens in future, nothing gonna change your status in my heart.

i wil take my time,i am idiot,but i am trying my best. dont be afraid,i will not be that rush,that aggresive anymore

you must always take good care of yourself ya =)

sign off,
steven

Expression

abandoned my blog for month plus already, my writing mood always come when mid of the night, i am pretty sure, my brain works better and i can think better,do better decision at this moment. each time when i am dropping new post for my blog, normally is the time i cant find somebody talk to me,i am saying my friends cant help, just that, sometimes i cant even tell what had happened to me. to be frank, this kind of situation are the most tragic, because you dont know what to do/you know,but you dont wanna do......

i totally agree that, music can affects ppl's mind, recently pick up few favourite songs and quote some lyrics share with my readers, and the lyrics somehow is kinda meaningful for me as well, can be my word of express too. I may not say it quite as much i as should, when i say i love you that means for good, only death do us apart,i dont care what they say,i wanna be with you, you are everything in my life,you completes me.

i cant explain this feeling,i think about you everyday,if one day we need to move on, please remember me. when i fall in love,i will take my time, there is noneed to hurry made up my mind, all i wanna say is i wanna be with you.

Today,part of me dies,when i let you go.-blind by lifehouse

where am I?who i am?

too free recently, free doesnt mean you are rest well
basically, i am mentally busy........full of nonsense from my mouth
full of excuses in my mind.i am so dead.

nevermind, tomorrow will be another wonderful day
as long as i do as i planned.
"dont give up if there is end in front, try to find a turning point"

sign off,nites mates.

meaningless

when you got time
u wont go and blog
when you are busy
u will try to blog
u blog,blog for nothg,jz wanna blog it out
too free.too many nonsense.too much to write
dont wan blog liao
too busy,then u will blog,becz of u wanna get away from busy

sam raimi-(drag me to hell)!!!!!

actually nth do with the movie.lol

-steven-

objection

ppl says, dare to dream big, is a achiever. but i say, dream too big, is a wet dreamer,

ppl says, dare to try, is a warior, but i say, simply make a try, will be an all time loser,

ppl says, dare to risk, will be an overcomer, but sumtimes, ppl create risk for themself.

act i got nothing to blog,jz some stupid post, and i wanna say,

i dare to dream, because human are magnificent because of dream.

i dare to try, because nobody will be a forever failure.

i dare to risk, because taking risk we see the chance, no pain no gain, no try no luck.

i will never let go this time.

gotta go, 6.30am in the early morning.

-steven-

Update

Nearly a month never log in to my blogspot, not because of got nothing to post for
just recently,i am really begun to be busy again, mentally and physically. In additional, serious bout my life this time, for the very first time. The reason i drop this post, i was inpired by one of my coursemate, KY,thanks to him, his patient, determination, loyalty makes me feel i am so tiny, and thanks for ur post, ur post convince me that, when you really want her, you must do everything, anything to make her happy, and i have to salute to u for this thoughts.

loyal is not a sin, liking someone else is not a sin, but i am always defeated to myself, my negative minded, my low-self esteem, i am a human have nothing, because of i dont have self-confident. i am not blaming anyone for that, its only myself caused everythgs went wrong. Good for nothing? i always claimed to my fren, i am good for nothing. for all this while, i havnt take my life seriously, how irresponsible i will be??do i realize that??posible for me be more commited?be more obligate??i dont know....

Negative is my name, low-self confident is my bestfren, irresponsible significants me, haha, how pathetic?ya, think so.i dont know how wicked i am when i hate sumbody, i dont know how good i will be if i want to,i dun even know how to express myself in front of you. pls forgive me that i am cowardly avoid to admiting i am fall for you, pls forgive me that i thinks i am not able to cheer u up, pls forgive me when someday, i leaving for not burdening you anymore, but i dare to say,i realli want you.at least in my own blog, HAHA!

Had i try my best to be better person?no, i got a tons of fxxking excuses for myself, to make myself feel better after any mistake i done, but now on, no more, i gotta throw all these away, for you, for myself,orelse, no future.

when i see you, i am really happy and enjoy the moment that u spent with me, at the same time, i am afraid of i will addicted to you, i am afraid that one day u might be not sharing ur time with me again,i admit,i am selfish, i am selfish for you. why i am in PJ for past few years, recently i onli know the answer. y i am still single, cz i believe that u r still with me.

thanks for light up my life again, thanks for encouraging me, thanks for strenghten my spirit to go thru everythg, thanks for making me trust in love again, i am very grateful and thankful to god, i believe, in faith,in fate, in you. no matter how, i will not simply give up anymore, no matter how, i will try all i can to be with you. no matter how, i will change myself for good, change myself for you.

-steven-