How i cure my loneliness. how i cure when i miss someone.

Typical Aquarius cant beat boredom and loneliness. once i told my friend, there are something you can kill me, make me mute,broke my legs or throw me to a stranded island,and i am serious with it.in life, there is 2 elements i wouldn't miss out, entertainment, and football. Entertainment concluded, social life, friends, music, movie. football? this sport had following me for a decade, the day still count on =)

back in hometown nearly a month, time flies, and i am wasting my time too, haha! frankly, now i only pick myself up to be more serious on my job hunting, finally, i got some ideal plans in my mind, too bad, i am still in dilemma......nowadays, i oldtown's regular customers. spending whole afternoon at old town coffee shop.for? internet access lo. and cure my coffee addiction too. i am gonna be one of the Malaysia Diabetis Association's member very soon.

my temper became worst, alil bit of lost control, abit lost too. i hate to be alone, but still need to overcome it. when i said i dont wanna miss her, but i keep on doing something which will make me think of her, i ate a lot of instant noodle, i ate chocolate, i ate ice cream, and i am getting fatter. i drink a lot too recently. must do some changes d. cant keep on like this.

i realize, when you keep on deny missed some1 else, u might miss her more, and doing the act which will remind her/him more. i will keep my faith until the day i found it again. and i am ok =)

signed off

Decision, Dilemma

I read an article bout life and decision making,which might bring a huge impact in our life,and there is something that inspired me the most.let share this here:

What is your Biggest fear?

What are fear of while you the result so unpredictable.

What bothering you the most all the time?

The problem/issue that bothering you the most, are the thing u care the most

Do not always blame on opportunity did not approach you, ask yourself, had you well prepared?

Luck are with those who work hard.

thanks to Mr Tee. he made me changed my mind after have a long conversation with him. very grateful. although i don't trust god, but if he really do exist, he still havn't abandoned, forgotten me. thanks a lot.i think i have to brush up my language before i decide to pick this challenge up.

"God close your front door, he will open another exit for u"

No. 1

one day,my fren ask"eh,when is your bday??"

i feel excited pulak dat time,haha,tot she wanna give me stgelse on my bday

"erm 11feb lo"

"you maybe the type of person got leadership wan..."

i was like "............"

erm.....she say, according to visiber punya calculation hor, ppl like me can be leader...

ok.my post wasnt to show off myself,i jz wanna say that, sumtimes, ppl tend to be supertitious,

afterall, because this type of ppl keep in faith,believe in everythg they do,finally,they success,

so i understand that, always have faith in what you do my friend, and take care =)

sign off,

steven

tiger beer

had been long long time we never drink together,is damn crazy for tonight, we are never try drink so much after our club after yr1, tonight i am really enjoy it.

too bad, now alergy starts attack my palm, both also felt damn numb right now, dont know what will happen after i wake up.haha,watever, like what people always says:what comes around,goes around =)

i am happy cz finally today i can see you again, i am not hoping anything,anymore,when you are smile, my heart are smilling too. no matter what happens in future, nothing gonna change your status in my heart.

i wil take my time,i am idiot,but i am trying my best. dont be afraid,i will not be that rush,that aggresive anymore

you must always take good care of yourself ya =)

sign off,
steven

Expression

abandoned my blog for month plus already, my writing mood always come when mid of the night, i am pretty sure, my brain works better and i can think better,do better decision at this moment. each time when i am dropping new post for my blog, normally is the time i cant find somebody talk to me,i am saying my friends cant help, just that, sometimes i cant even tell what had happened to me. to be frank, this kind of situation are the most tragic, because you dont know what to do/you know,but you dont wanna do......

i totally agree that, music can affects ppl's mind, recently pick up few favourite songs and quote some lyrics share with my readers, and the lyrics somehow is kinda meaningful for me as well, can be my word of express too. I may not say it quite as much i as should, when i say i love you that means for good, only death do us apart,i dont care what they say,i wanna be with you, you are everything in my life,you completes me.

i cant explain this feeling,i think about you everyday,if one day we need to move on, please remember me. when i fall in love,i will take my time, there is noneed to hurry made up my mind, all i wanna say is i wanna be with you.

Today,part of me dies,when i let you go.-blind by lifehouse

where am I?who i am?

too free recently, free doesnt mean you are rest well
basically, i am mentally busy........full of nonsense from my mouth
full of excuses in my mind.i am so dead.

nevermind, tomorrow will be another wonderful day
as long as i do as i planned.
"dont give up if there is end in front, try to find a turning point"

sign off,nites mates.

meaningless

when you got time
u wont go and blog
when you are busy
u will try to blog
u blog,blog for nothg,jz wanna blog it out
too free.too many nonsense.too much to write
dont wan blog liao
too busy,then u will blog,becz of u wanna get away from busy

sam raimi-(drag me to hell)!!!!!

actually nth do with the movie.lol

-steven-