4 years ago.......

not purposely to stop,but the blog post it automatically,so weird...just now found something very special in my messy wardrobe,is a letter,letter which mean something for me,a letter i receive 4 years ago,a letter which makes me miserable,heart stolen,souless,a letter which gave me thousand reason to blame on myself....



still remember that teen old days,every1 was desperate for love,curious bout sex,i admit,i m desperate,but not pervert for sure(some people love to call me maniacs, swt ==") haha,just leave it,when everytime i flash back,i feel that myself are like scum,balless,chicky idiot,i m so so so insensible,anyway,my fren again,jung was the reflexion of myself past few years ago,i hope i able to persuade him to do the right choice,in fact,i am people who most not qualify to console him....when i look at jung,only thing i pray for,please dont repeat what i have done,my regretness was nevergone, i had lost many,and i cant dare to try anymore in love...



knewing her,it was a destiny,fated,more to lesson for me,no doubt,i let her down,i do,i swear......

me and her met in a big camp which organised by government programme,we are the 1st batch for this programme,when i get know i have to go attend this programme,my feeling was ignoring,annoying and hoping this nightmare ends before i went down,coz i dun have any well impression on gov's project neither any function...



we have to train at campsite start from the very 1st day,we have been arrange and separate group by group,i am C1 member,haha,i wont forget all my member,something sad is,i lost my members contact.our group have the most chinese among 8 group in the camp,act no ppl bothers bout it,coz u will neva know how was our's feeling when in camp....


my 1st week in the camp wasnt that good,with nasty bed,noisy camp mates,and of coz,ciggies,its driving me dizzy,haha~everyone was in the condition of adapting,no communicate between any of us,busy with own business,is so bored for my 1st week,and sickening too.....the weather there are alot different with my hometown,daytime, we sweat like waterfalls,no kidding,its true,u will notice that every noon u will bathe with sweat...eww~!when midnight,the cool air blow to ur leg,it was just so icy,haha...cool ya~this is my 1st week....to be continue...