Yesterday......

Yesterday,all my sorrow seems so far away........
Oh i believe in yesterday.......
-Beetles-

Suddenly so afraid of death,suddenly dunno who i am

Suddenly felt dat i achieve nothing in my life

Suddenly i couldnt trace back the determination i had before

Suddenly i so lost....

I am still living in yesterday,i m a human being that dont like reality,but yet,force to accept it

I am still hoping life wasnt dat bored,am i not dat fuggy anymore

I am still the person which never change from pass 20yrs ago....

what i want?what have i did?did i satisfy with the life i had now?

The answer is NO!!

I WANT TO CHANGE,CHANGE MYSELF......

Kaki Ponteng

let say back in highsch time,i can confirm that i will sacked by sch due to frequent ponteng class(skip class),today,are 4 (or5) classes i skipped d...i feel so guilt,i m so slack...

this sem have only 7weeks,i dun think i shud ponteng anymore:
3class lecture PR role model
2class lecture Planning and management
2class tutorial Planning and management

I Am FXXKING useless Slacker,pharmacy got any remedy to cure me??
tell me then.....

If i can.....

I wish that karma does exist,so that, the people who guilt,shall punish by god

I wish that God does exist,so that,he will makes this world more balance

I wish that i always wish that the reality wasnt the thg i nid to go thru....

I wish that,u will meet sum1 dat realli can guide to th real pathway....

I wish that,forgiveness never lands u!!!

Santini.

now i realize that the power of alcohol,my phone also affected,lolz....

the pics took when relaxing in Santini,act is Miss Sandra big day,her's birthday
no way lo,noe la,i m not drinker,have to "eng xiu" also.hahaha.....

soon will update more pics..stay tuned =D

Entertainers??

watching match of the century with LP and KH,discussing stg interesting,might be sumthing cathcy in ur life as well,stg dat u might meet sumday,haha...

LP talk bout the stuff he read on forum,dunno which forum la,but stg dat kinda yellowish(18SX)
about ENTERTAINING ur client 1,suddenly felt dat,how good to be a client's entertainer..but suddenly question appears here....

KH:how to handle a homie?and he/she is ur biggest client in ur company?
LP:haha,tough,tough.....

STVN:let u choose la,a man with a pen,or raw walking porkchop?

KH,LP,SK whoever yamcha-ing there,stunned,and laughing crazily.....

guys,who will u choose?homie or smelly fei phor??u decided =D

Lamps....

i dun really do research on this kind stuff before,do snap sum frm Ikea while previous visit,wanna shared my thoughts and kept my inspiration with write it down.

i love ikea's designers art work,it juz simply nice and easy,i wondering how they gain sum many creativity,wat swedish consume in their daily life?wat they do?jz curious,lolz....

Creativity are sumthg recognise by everyone,not urself,suggestion is to suggest,not making thgs become complicated,anyhow,the lamps are the best invention from Edison,without lamp,bulb,wat generates ur idea while the world is in darkness?can anyone tell me dat?

Impulsive Part II

PRETTY?SEXY?NICE BODY FIGURE?always heard from my frens,MR K.J giving high compliments to Thai girls,i found 1,charming,mature beauty type,now i started agree what he told us previously,to be frank,he not only good fren of my,plus,indirectly,he is a B example for me(B=???)haha,u guess wats dat la....tutor as well...he is knowledgeble?not realli,but he is experienced,veteran,is he a genius?nope,but he can pass the test without study,he learn stg which couldnt found in book....(HOW TO WIN GIRL'SSSS HEART IN 2HRS),ya,no kidding...respect tak?haha

I dun think the pic does deal with wat i wrote now,but when i c the pics,i do feel sumthg...erm hormone stuff la,haha..today when one my fren told me his fren pregnant,i started think of the Thai girl,KJ as well,was wondering how old his child now...hahaha(hope he wont read my blog)
guys out there,pls becareful,wear HELMET when u wanna WORK,so u wont have to hit and run,u will not become ppl's parents in early of age,guys are visual animal,brain grow lower body,so i conclude dat,MAN ARE ALWAYS IMPULSIVE....haha

Impulsive....leads failure

what i have done while now is the 2nd week of short sem?notify that yr3 s2 is quite rush and the schedule packed like hell,i m still not able to pick up myself to construct my assignments, busy
for DOTA,i am shamed to tell u dat,i busy playing tis game,i am not addicted,but not givin up to play cz wanna win my roomate,seems childish ya,yeah,kiddo stuff...haha...

even play game,i do using my brain power,twist,squeeze,and sumtimes i will figure out my weaknesses in game,dats my sub-conscious....i realli dat,i am so furious,so impulsive,and sumtimes hatred and vengeane,tat was so negative,i dint improve any while i train myself thru tis game,wat i mean is,my patient become lesser,am my attitude problem still there.....

SO SAD......i dunno wat can save me,wat can help me,human borned to be learn,as in forever,u will neva see the end of knowledge,there is sumthing in my mind.clutches my voice of heart too,alway wish that,it will come to me again,till the very forever,before that,i mz prepared myself,with changing my fxxking attitude,before the greater challenge arrive....frens,ARE YOU REady??

This Era, That Era....

"Check, check....Yr 2008, started counting down for the incoming 2009..." u may thought i calculate sum waiting event or sum1else important made for me...bday...nope, u guys misunderstanding, frankly speaking, ppl who know me well,i will not giv a damn on time stuff, dats y,my time management are very un-organise..this sound true for me...

no other plan or wat la,dat day chating wiv a net fren,i jz realized in reality world,there are still such thg happens,u noe wat? "blind date"...opssi...not blind date,but blind marriage..swt la wei...Ripley aye?-believe it or not..hahaha...but i think is was real..cz i trust wat the person told me.

she told me dat,she will leave MY end of this yr,taiwan next station,why?cz she will marridge wiv a guy she doesnt see b4,and directed by her grandma...gosh..pls la..nowadays still got tis kind of thgs 1 meh??i realli feel speechless...

i always glad i born in 21th century,for i dunnid to bear many thg went thru by my great grand parents,in fact,sum place still practise this kind of wat we call it "old law"..no other thg,i can onli pray for her,gain back her's freedom ASAP....cz she told me,she will wish to re-incarnation ....sad huh?

I will pray for you...AT
-Steven-

Where am I now...

Midnite 3am are alwaYs the best time for me to blog,while surfing net,viewing frenster,i am doin nonsense as well, and my writing mood will come this moment...

sorry for not update my blog,not i am lazy,but everytime when i wanna write down my daily life,somethg come across in my mind,i had to busy for some other urgent stuff,haha....(excuses)

My blog will under construction,due to previous blog kinda emo,i am thinking of re-create new blog....i wish to start a new begining, a new milestone for myself

sleepy,tml 8am class,chaoz~! ^^