Bay Song

It is Not a hatred post, i swear to god, but something negative, fed up d ma. again, you wasting everyone's precious time, and it just like never end story, fuck you for the sake of god, if i am almighty , i will end your life just like that, why? wasting people's time equally a murderer. since our activity involved some many human being, so you are the serial killer. yes you!

i just wanna blab for few things here, just a simple reminder for a so called leader.

shit happened for a reason, don't expect people to whip you ass every time you poo, and you want people clear up for, of course can, but with good manner would you?

time management, time, time is gold, you see my time as go? just like air? you manage your time well, don't you feel guilty while most of the people are there already and waiting for you? must feel shame ma, i don't care whether your are babysitter or sensei, while people ask puncture? ya, on time please!! fuck you, you are the one should fuck by negro, idiot!

i admit, always feel impatient bout your behavior, yalah, i should say sorry to you, i shouldn't expect you might be one of the rising star, but at least, when everyone is de-grading, go-stun liao, lu lagi walk backwards, i thought this shouldn't occur, because you are too weak to down graded!

And the very last request, please don't act like a team leader, nobody listen to you, especially me, i only salute/ respect to those who impressed me, you din't , tell you a norm among peoples who really dislike you, i don't use hate, because hating a people is actually tiring job, you know what norm was that? 'wei, you are aliltle bit better than HIM only" and that was the most sarcastic made for us. LOLX

pls grow up dude!

I met some problems

health problem, financial crisis, confident problem, any solutions?

Plans

I wanna get a job, a very #1 task, I wanna slim down, yet, haven't starts any executions.

There is something up on my mind, i need to do what i should, what i want, planning without action.

Its only plain talk cock nia. wake up!

Friend.

This post is specially dedicate to Yibin, who will leaving on end of this Sept, the date drawing near ade some how.

I don't need a friend who can spend me beer or meal, i need a friend share me beer and nice meal,

I don't need a friend who can fetch me everywhere, but when my car broke down, he can fetch me or help me call for help

I don't need a friend who offer me a job, i just need their sincere advice on my career

I don't need a friend bring my chicks, i prefer a friend bring me know his dude

And luckily, i have many of mine friends able to do so, sounds demanding, i am doing the same way to my friends too,to the my buddies, whole night long chat, i able to offer you guys =)

People told me, when you get older, you will have lesser friends, i should say, you may gain some while you losing some.

One of my best friend, my beer mate, my tea mate, will left Malaysia for U.K in this coming week, i would say, i feel upset and happy at the same time. sad coz might not seeing him for 2 years or maybe if he able to settle down in U.K. then will be very rare chance to meet up ade. Happy for him, because not every1 able to further their study in U.K although its getting common.

Anyway, Yibin, i wish you have the best undertaking in your future, and please come back Malaysia, you know people here do really needs you badly, take care always!

Racist

I hate racist, superbly hate racist. the racist i mean here is not only people who ask Malaysia chinese go back China via AA, as well as chinese who talk alike racist. in fact, if they arent 1, they wont talk alike racist.

Fuck the racist! I damn hate racist, don't la like that, i meet lotsa decent malaysians, since you are 1 of them, why call those racist as barbarian? ya, you may right in some way, think about you, when you sound so vengeful, you already one of them, different team only, you are in minority of gang, this is silly okay!

Ya, i am so idiot because of those few stupid words, but i do really care bout my country, i born as Malaysian, i called myself as overseas chinese, in fact, i still loves my tanah air, i will never forget this phase, "We are the Rakyat". Fuck the inequality in Msia, just do what you can, at least be a voter.

sign off. (with anger still)

It is not the ending i wish to see

I heard this phrase many times, don't know since when, push a button, is not really that difficult, its depend on who you are, what you are.

It is So beautiful while you begun a new relationship, and you couldn't imagine how ugly will it be "when Loves comes to the end"

"It is not the ending wish to see" i believe that, job hunt is just similiar with your human relationship, "this is not i want" what i often tell my friend, excuse? nope, i haven't met the right one, will you be with someone else for simply lonely? maybe yes maybe not. the best is not for me lah.

I am still looking for the right one, wish me luck!

Signed off
-Steven-

Calculative

i used to be very generous, and kind to everyone, i mean, most of my friends, even strangers, i just figured it out, my blood turns into cold and colder. At least, i don't simply do charity, or treats everyone the same way.

When you gets older, you might see things differently, the thing which i mean here is, the dark side of human. One of the most unbearable human's ugly behavior for me is, Selfish. i know, it is kinda ridiculous if asking your friend treat you equally, some people claims they don't judge friend, but the way they did to you, it reflected the status in his mind, and i call this people as talker. this type of people talk well, you wanna seek help from them, save the breath for yourself, and maybe the trouble lesser than waiting the assist.

Being calculative wasn't a sin, you had have so many best friends, so it is impossible to be decent to every of them, and i guess, you rate your friend via what potential they have. when you spend a penny on your friend, you are hoping to get it back 100times from what u have invested. impressive, you are greater than Buffett, even Steve Jobs offer you a job.

Too try to be a man, don't you always fooling people stays around you, doncha you think this is so unfair to them? when people be nice to you, remember, dont take in for granted, unconditional contribution normally bring you bigger tragedy, be consideration a bit, there is no free lunch in this world, even fresh air, you need to pay for it.

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My life Journal

My English getting worst and rotten nowadays, writing and speaking, feel worried bout it. have to brush up my language through post more blog, in fact, its kinda wrong too, because nobody will know what mistake they had made, human doesn't self evaluate that often, and this is a fact!

My grammar are sucks, yet, i have no solution on it, aih, let it be lah! anyway, this blog is not blog about my language, 2 days ago, i had made up my mind, i decide to give a try, and test myself, so i gotta brush up my english before i take this challenge, before the journey starts again....

Thank god, i dint delete my present blog, which i had an intention to do so, after read back some of my posts, i able to trace myself, where i am now, and whether i am improving or still stepping on the same spot? reluctant, i am walking backwards actually, i shall remind myself via this Life journal.

Finally, buck up man! A man who live without dreams and career, not qualify as a Real Man! i wanna be something more than i turn into something, sounds catchy aye? have a lil brainstorm bout it lah peeps, again, Adios!

-steven-

Racist

Pakatan Rakyat ( people's collision) took over 4 states in Semenanjung during General Election march of 8th, so here we are, Malaysian, finally the government recognize 16sept as Malaysia's days, sounds weird, but in fact, i prefer this meaningful day compared with so called independent day.

contributions from belated almarhum Tunku Abdul Rahman cannot be erase, i only able to know a little bit of him from some article, even is just a simple piece of his life, and some quote from Malaysia's independent father, but his love towards his nation, his RAKYAT was endless. Tunku never say, kerana melayu, sebab itu tanah air ini namanya, Malaysia. if today, he is still alive, he might die instantly because of today's Bumi's

today, i am not blog about politic, but i have these kind of saddening feel during Malaysia day, why still tons of politic leaders torn apart between races in order to be the ruilling party? suddenly,i miss Yasmin Ahmad alot, i miss her, not because of she produce good PSA, but , she taught us, how to be more COLORBLIND. dont be so hatred, peeps, i do have some malay friends who respect chinese and other races, and i have some chinese friends who are very racist, please aware this, ARE, meaning they are still.

i am doubt about some parents, told them children this way " dont talk to them, they are idiot than chinese..." ya. right, you look alot more pighead when you told this to your children, i believe only 1 thing, human being are not born to be racist, they had being influence, blind folded, if i were god, how i wish to turn all the racists into blind, so that they wont that racist? does it works? i doubt.

GTG,
-Steven-

Doutbful

Blogging Mood knocking on the door, Bloggaroll! yeah, 2nd post of the day, since 2 months ago, havent log on my blog, i should write it more, its just a journal of my life, feelings and thoughts of life, twisted comment as well, haha!

about Iphone, facebook, LV Burberry and Clubber cultures, currently is like tornado, overwhelmingly growth everywhere,i mean, usage, level of popular, getting higher, and the range of user group age become more varieties, from 13 to 65 yr old, really hardly to follow the trend ade (refer to facebook, and branded diseases)

i doubtful bout 2 things, why have some certain kind of human keeping show off with their Facebook, like so grateful with her/his current life, worship with god la, bla bla bla. i know. loving your life wasnt a sin, but when you telling how blissful you are, please think of people who live around you, some of them might very unlucky.

"i wanna buy pair of new heels, i hate "vincy", too ordinary and CHEAP!" "i wanna shop shop shop!" " i wanna go honeymoon at Malibu~" " in L.A now, i Love L.A " think bout it, when you kap siao kap pi that time, u might hurted ur friend, and if you able to spend for that much, do it for charity, sounds good aye? my philosophy very simple only, i prefer every1 is happy, better than i happy alone

OK, stop ranting, haha, its not a hatred blog, jz some weird thought of mine, and i doubt did LV and Burberry lifts u up, do facebook really bring you real friends? show off makes u looks beautiful, the others uglier than you?i say nolo, to those hypocrite, dont tell the whole world you are so damn gay with ur life now, ppl feel sick, me either. GTG

signed 0ff
-steven-

life, you will never know until you realize its gone

In my life, i often met this type of homosapien, "i heard from A, we shouldn't do this action", "according to friend of mine, the place is quite nice", "they said and they say..." i noticed this type of human, they arent those who without opinion, but they prefer convert their own opinion, to the "others", when ppl disagree with them, they just push away, it wasnt me! duh!

i am struggle over few issues bout myself, have no result still, always proscastinating, self deceit , excuses, bla bla bla.....keep telling myself that tomorrow will be better, i can figure it, i can fix it, end up-nothing! i am so lost, until i lost myself,i dont even know what am i doing recently, buck up buck up!

ok, pls bear with me bout tis, i really heard from 1 of my friend, "let say u have only 6hour left for ur life, what will you do?" i really cant tell, and i dont even know what i should put in the 1st place, what comes after, meaning, its still long way for me to go, i had wasted my life for nearly half years, no joke, precisely, 4months. i gain nothing besides of body weight.

-Life, you will never know WHAT YOU HAD MISSINg, until you realize its gone- i missed a dream, i missed myself, i missing the sense of belonging, and the taste of victory, no life satisfactory for this 120days, how sad?! life is only 1 way ticket, and if i have chance, i will answer my friend for the previous question he gave me, "i gotta woke up from this long day dream, and bucked up, earn back what i suppose to have at my age, what is my future plans."

with you question, i generate another silly thought, "think bout what had u done in your life, if you only left 6hrs on this world?"

signed off,
-steven-

Its good to be true

yesterday went Penang Heritage day. not too bad. the only regret was, i am so lack of history knowledge on Penang. shame on me. is like, you dont know your grand parents well. shame or not? FYI, Adelaide and Georgetown are sisters city, i just knew it from CEO Goh.lolx! watched She's out of my league, 4 and a half stars rate for this love comedy. simply love the story line, the stars, the jokes in the movie, and the way they present the movie, of cause, nonstop swore and funny scene, haha!

for the movie, i dint put in high hope at 1st. but eventually, this movie bring me lot of joy and hope, although is just a movie. but wat they had presented is really so true. and good. "i am 10,you are 5, you hope that i have some flaws so that you are only able to match with me?" "in my eyes, no matter you are unorganized, drive that fucking old neon, stupid, you are 10 made for me"

thank you for the producer and director of this movie, of coz, crews, stars, alive eve, jay bahchulle, u guys rocks, and thank you for the life lesson and the jokes. "stand back again from where you fell"

-no one is perfect, when you met some one is worth to be with, then you found the precious and the perfect one for yourself-

sign off
-steven-

heartbreak

my 1st blog since half yrs ago. what a long time ago. i tot i can use this blog to record down every lil thg i had. but still failed. yesterday for the very 1st time feel heartbreak after few months ago. the tango made my day. gone bad. i am really sad for the result.i couldnt accept it until now. maybe i shall give up. give up to love something i love.i belongs to sorrow and horror. i bring bad luck to those innocent 1.i feel guilty. i am sorry, Argentina.

To Argentina Fans,
-Blame the players, Dont blame the game_

congratulations, Germany!

Sign off,
steven